EVER WISH...
Ever wish you could turn back the hands of time and undo an act?
Ever wish you could change people’s perception about you? (Be honest, you care what someone thinks!)
Ever wish you could open up your heart and let that one guy/ girl see how much you love and adore them and how safe they'll always be with you?
Ever wish he/ she could love you back in return?
Ever wish you could have all the money in the world, and travel wherever and whenever? (without ever having to work? :) )
Ever wish life was without pain? Just smiles all through?
Ever wish you could pause time and take a deep breathe?
Ever wish people were less selfish and practised empathy? (government especially)
Ever wish Lucifer was just obedient and humble before the almighty?
Ever wish Adam and Eve never ate that damn fruit? *sigh*
Ever wish you were closer to God (more, Christ) than you are? (it's so hard in our world today, I know)
Ever wish you died as a child filled with innocence? (Easiest way to make heaven...easiest way to enjoy life’s beauty)
Ever wish death wasn't so sudden? But came with warnings so you and your loved ones could prepare for it?
Ever wonder if the life we are living now has been pre-destined and we just acting out a role?
Would it then be okay to just relax and let life take it's cause?
Ever wish you would wake up and be told that you've been in a coma all along, and all you thought was your life was just a dream?
Hmm, my many questions and wishes!
I bet you all think about it too or am i just weird?
Well, let’s hear your thoughts as well :)
very random.
Tuesday, 15 May 2012
Monday, 19 March 2012
Transformations
I actually wrote dis post two years back,while awaiting my NYSC.It was a long wait,I stayed home for two whole years depressed and filled with anger,that's actually what inspired this write up.
Today makes it exactly a month since I lost my dad to a car accident.I still find it hard to accept that his actually gone.I miss him sooooo much,words can't even start to describe.How can a man soooo full of life leave just like that? I hate to say his dead,cause the word "death/dead" feels so far fetched in describing what has become of a man like my dad.I prefer to say his gone,or has left earth.This post,was initially titled "Hate",a friend of mine helped me edit it,and had me read it.it"s quite amazing how it describes my current situation and comforts me.My mums says it's scary.lol... Well, here it is,enjoy and stay blessed.
TRANSFORMATIONS
It advanced menacing,
Mean and dark
Fierce, with deep tormenting hard eyes
It speaks no word but instills fear and anger.
As it walked towards me, those tormenting eyes weakened my knees, planting fright in me.
I fell to the floor helpless.
I felt my heart ache, and then felt it no more, as its claws took it out of me.
I lay there on the floor feeling empty, no love, no care –
Just bitterness, anger, depression and HATRED!!
With this, all my dreams, hopes and worth were tarnished – vanished.
In its stead came self pity and no self worth.
Every other night, I cried myself to sleep. Sleeping itself was hard.
I felt the whole world take me for a joke and think me worthless.
I confided in anger and hatred. They became my best friends.
Still, I caught the view
Two arms always spread apart, waiting to embrace me, but I always walked on by in thought:
"What the hell can a silly embrace do for me?"
Then, on that faithful night, as I lay on my bed crying, I saw those arms again, and decided to give them a try.
I went in for the embrace, the arms held me so tight, as if never ever wanting to let go of me.
It was the warmest embrace, that of a father to a child promising to always guard me.
The look in its eyes, that of a mother to a child telling me she'd always love me
Assuring me we would pull through whatever, together.
The smile on the lips, that of siblings and true friends overlooking my mood swings
Smiling just to show they understand me.
And then it struck me. That warm embrace was Christ himself.
He restored my heart (love) back to me and assured me through that warm embrace that all would be well,
And he'd always be here for me. He made me see how lovely a family and friends he has given me.
They are always going to love, care trust and believe in me regardless…
I love you Jesus. Thank you for giving me a piece of you here on earth
In the peace of this lovely family and friends.
"...THE LORD NEVER PROMISED US A STORMLESS LIFE, BUT HE SURE GAVE US HOPE TO SEE THE END''
Today makes it exactly a month since I lost my dad to a car accident.I still find it hard to accept that his actually gone.I miss him sooooo much,words can't even start to describe.How can a man soooo full of life leave just like that? I hate to say his dead,cause the word "death/dead" feels so far fetched in describing what has become of a man like my dad.I prefer to say his gone,or has left earth.This post,was initially titled "Hate",a friend of mine helped me edit it,and had me read it.it"s quite amazing how it describes my current situation and comforts me.My mums says it's scary.lol... Well, here it is,enjoy and stay blessed.
TRANSFORMATIONS
It advanced menacing,
Mean and dark
Fierce, with deep tormenting hard eyes
It speaks no word but instills fear and anger.
As it walked towards me, those tormenting eyes weakened my knees, planting fright in me.
I fell to the floor helpless.
I felt my heart ache, and then felt it no more, as its claws took it out of me.
I lay there on the floor feeling empty, no love, no care –
Just bitterness, anger, depression and HATRED!!
With this, all my dreams, hopes and worth were tarnished – vanished.
In its stead came self pity and no self worth.
Every other night, I cried myself to sleep. Sleeping itself was hard.
I felt the whole world take me for a joke and think me worthless.
I confided in anger and hatred. They became my best friends.
Still, I caught the view
Two arms always spread apart, waiting to embrace me, but I always walked on by in thought:
"What the hell can a silly embrace do for me?"
Then, on that faithful night, as I lay on my bed crying, I saw those arms again, and decided to give them a try.
I went in for the embrace, the arms held me so tight, as if never ever wanting to let go of me.
It was the warmest embrace, that of a father to a child promising to always guard me.
The look in its eyes, that of a mother to a child telling me she'd always love me
Assuring me we would pull through whatever, together.
The smile on the lips, that of siblings and true friends overlooking my mood swings
Smiling just to show they understand me.
And then it struck me. That warm embrace was Christ himself.
He restored my heart (love) back to me and assured me through that warm embrace that all would be well,
And he'd always be here for me. He made me see how lovely a family and friends he has given me.
They are always going to love, care trust and believe in me regardless…
I love you Jesus. Thank you for giving me a piece of you here on earth
In the peace of this lovely family and friends.
"...THE LORD NEVER PROMISED US A STORMLESS LIFE, BUT HE SURE GAVE US HOPE TO SEE THE END''
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